Chapter Six: Breaking His Desire
“Hello?”
“Michael?”
“Yes?” he said, half asleep.
“It’s Tori. You know, your editor/publisher?”
“Oh Yeah yeah yeah. What’s up?”
he said, before it dawned on him.
“OH! Did you read it? What did you think? How much do I need to change?” He was tripping over himself with questions.
“Yes, I did read it and I really
like it. I just have a few suggestions
for you, which we can go over when you come in.
I don’t think this will take much work before sending it to print.”
“That’s awesome! Thank you so much!” Michael was doing a victory dance on his bed.
“I called to set up a meeting and
also to ask you about any ideas you had for your next series.” At that Michael stopped dancing.
“Yeah, about that…” he
hesitated. “I’ve hit some sort of road
block with that. Nothing I have come up
with has really grabbed me.”
“Wow, that’s a first,” Tori said
with sympathy. “Well maybe we can go
over some of those ideas and maybe tweek them or something.”
“Yeah, okay. I’ll bring in what I have, but I’m not
willing to start something that I won’t be fully into and it’s something my
readers deserve.”
“I understand.” Tori said.
“One step at a time. I’ve had
other writers hit a wall when starting a new series, especially when they put
their whole soul into the previous one.”
“Yeah.”
“Anyway, when are you free? I have an opening for tomorrow, Tuesday, at…
hm…” Michael could hear Tori ruffling through is day planner. “Let’s say 10:30?”
“Sounds perfect to me.” Michael went to his dry-erase board calendar
and scribbled in the time and Tori’s name.
“Alright, I’ll see you tomorrow!”
“Okay, see you then,”
“Bye.”
“Bye,” Michael said before hanging
up. “Woo! Yeah! He liked it, he liked
it,” he was doing a jig again when his phone rang and he almost dropped it in
his surprise.
“Hello?”
“Hey Bro! What are you up to?” It was Yuuki.
“Hey! I was thinking I needed to get out of the
house. Are you busy?”
“I am not, actually, what did you
have in mind?” Yuuki asked.
“Well, since you called, I was
thinking maybe some laser tag then grub?” Michael threw out.
“Wow! You must really be itching, we haven’t done
laser tag in forever.”
“Is that a no, cause you’re a
wuss??” Michael egged him on.
“Oh hell no! You’re on!
Where are we going and when should I be there?”
“Oh yeah! It’s that place down by the book store and
theater, I can’t remember the name, but you know. And meet in 20?”
“Oh it’s on! I’ll be there.” Yuuki always gets fired up
during a competition.
“Haha, alright, see you then.” Michael hung up and ran to his room to
change. If he knew Yuuki, and he did, he
was going to make getting there a race just because he was in competition mode. He changed as fast as he could and didn’t
even bother tying his shoes before running out the door.
Michael jogged up to the entrance
only to find Yuuki leaning against the wall.
He was trying to act as if he has been there for a while but he was
clearly out of breath. “What took you so
long?” he asked.
“Oh don’t even, you haven’t been
here long.” Michael said, catching his
own breath.
“Winning is winning, even if it’s by
a second,” Yuuki said with a smile.
Michael just stuck his tongue out at him in response. “Shall we?”
Yuuki motioned towards the door.
They both went in and paid for their time, receiving a mock gun and a
vest. It was still pretty early on a
Monday so they had the place to themselves.
They played for over an hour with Yuuki being the over-all victor.
“I’m never going to live this down,”
Michael said, wiping sweat from his face.
“Never,” Yuuki said, gloating. He safety-pinned his victory paper to his
chest and walked out of the building.
“I’m sorry you had to see that, some
boys just never grow up.” Michael said
to the clerk who was much younger than himself.
“We see that more than you might
think,” the clerk said in return. “Have
a good day!”
Michael followed Yuuki out the
door. “That was fun, I needed that. Thanks Yuuki,” Michael said and patted him on
the back.
“Well, considering I haven’t heard
from you since we went to the office, I was worried you were clamming up in
your house.” Yuuki said. “I wasn’t surprised when you said you wanted
to do something like laser tag, ha ha. I
figured you were blocked still.”
“Yeah, I am and I was, but not for
that reason.” Michael spoke without
looking directly at Yuuki.
They started walking to the coffee
place they always go to after visiting the book store. “What do you mean? Is there something else going on? Is it Ellie? Huh huh? It is isn’t it?”
“You always get right to the point,
don’t you?” Michael said with a laugh.
“Well, I know you pretty well, and
you guys looked pretty close the last time I saw you together. Eh eh??”
“You’re enjoying this far too
much.” Yuuki gave a ‘yes! Victory!’
motion before Michael could speak again.
“Its… not that.”
Yuuki stopped mid-victory, “What do
you mean? Is it not working?”
“Oh no, Ellie is fine. She’s already a great friend.”
“Friend?!” Yuuki stopped and stared at him. “I’m sorry, we ARE talking about the same
person right. Elane, smoking hot, long
brown and purple hair, legs that go to heaven?”
“Wow, sounds like you might be a
little interested.” Michael joked.
“I’m serious here. She’s gorgeous and she is obviously brilliant. What’s the matter with her?” Yuuki sounded very concerned.
“I know, and I tried, but something
else has come up.”
“What could possibly be more
interesting than Ellie?” Yuuki was
starting to get frantic.
“You’ll make fun of me if I tell
you.” Michael was avoiding looking at
him again and started walking with a more brisk pace.
“Dude! I’m your best friend, I would never make fun
of you for something that’s important.
And clearly this is of utmost importance.” Yuuki was trying to keep up with
Michael. Michael hesitated to answer and
Yuuki slapped him on the back of the head.
“Come on! Tell me!”
“Auuuuugh…. Fine.” Michael conceded. “But you promise to hear me out before making
judgement?”
Yuuki crossed his heart with his finger, “I promise.”
Yuuki crossed his heart with his finger, “I promise.”
Michael took a deep breath and let
it out. “There is someone else…”
“That’s it?” Yuuki stared at him in disbelief.
“It’s….. not what you expect.”
“Just tell me already, then!”
Michael took another deep breath and
closed his eyes, avoiding Yuuki altogether.
“It’s not a woman.” Yuuki stopped
walking and took it in. After a long
moment of silence, Michael peeked over at him.
His face was blank, which would scare Michael normally, but he was just
relieved that he wasn’t losing his mind over it. “Uh… Yuuki?”
After another moment he finally
looked at Michael and spoke. “I need
more information,” he said and began walking to the coffee shop with more
vigor. Michael followed behind him. They ordered and sat down before they spoke
again. After a few sips Yuuki finally
said, “Not a woman, huh?”
“Yeah,” Michael answered.
“So… that means that you were
distracted by… a man?”
“Well, that is the other gender, so
it stands to reason that ‘not a woman’ would mean a man.” Michael said, trying to lighten the subject.
“Smart ass comments not required.”
Yuuki said, he was in detective mode. “A
man…”
“This is why I was trying to avoid
telling you…” Michael said, thinking he had made a huge mistake.
“No no no, I’m glad you did tell
me. It’s just hard to imagine you with a
guy, you have always been a ladies’ man.
I mean, you had very low success with relationships but you never missed
an opportunity to mac on one and, you know, seal the deal.” He said the last
with an eyebrow wiggle.
“Believe me, it took me by surprise
as well. And I don’t think this would
happen with any other guy, even now the thought makes me cringe.”
“So what makes this guy
special? And do I know him? How did you meet him?” Yuuki was starting to get used to the idea
and his nosey-friend mode was kicking in.
Michael laughed, both at his
excitement and at his own relief. “Well,
you know who he is, but allow me to tell you who it is after, save some of the
excitement.” Yuuki nodded. “I saw him
before this all started happening but when I first interacted with him was,
ironically, at the club where and when we met the girls.” Yuuki made a ‘what?!’ face. “Yeah, I know. It was kind of a weird first interaction, to
be honest. He was, um, having a bad time
and I stumbled upon him and it got interesting.”
“Interesting?” Yuuki was giving him his full attention.
“Yeah, he, well, I don’t want to air
anyone’s dirty laundry, but this particular man was a marine and he suffers
from PTSD. I actually did something to
trigger him and he went into a panic attack.
I couldn’t leave him, I tried, but couldn’t. And then, after it passed, he said he was
curious and he…” Michael started
blushing and he looked away.
“He what?!” Yuuki pressed.
“He… um… he kissed me.” Michael
still wasn’t looking at Yuuki but he heard him hit his hands on the table and
knew the expression on his face.
“Whaaaaaaat??? He just kissed you?”
Michael nodded, “he said he was
curious. I guess I struck a chord with
him.”
“Woaah, Oh my god, excuse me for
sounding like a girl but oh my god!”
Yuuki tapped on the table a few more times in excitement.
“You really do seem like a girl,”
Michael laughed.
“So what happened next?”
“He left.”
“What? He left? Talk about a mood
killer,” Yuuki said with disappointment and he sat back in his seat.
Michael laughed, “Were you expecting
full on boning right there in the club?”
“I mean… if the shoe fits.”
Michael blushed but said,
“Yuuki! You pervert!”
“Oh, I know that look, something did
happen! Is that why I haven’t heard from
you in almost a week?”
“Well, I had a date with him on
Thursday and… I’ll spare you the details, but it was pretty damn close to the
best mess-around session I have ever had.”
Michael was completely red now.
Yuuki laughed, “I’ve never seen you
like this before. But I have to ask,
before getting into the more psychological questions: what was it like? I mean,
does it feel different than a girl?”
“What do you mean?” Michael asked,
partially trying to avoid the question.
“I mean, two guys having sex, one
has to put it, you know, in there,” Yuuki pointed towards his own butt. “How did it feel?”
“Wow… you went there, okay…” Michael said exasperated. “Well… we didn’t actually do that.” Michael looked down into his coffee. “We, um, decided to wait because neither of
us are gay, so we don’t know who is who.”
“Who is who?” Yuuki asked,
confused. “OH!” then it dawned on him,
“you mean whose going to be the one catching?”
“Yes, to put it crudely.” Michael snapped.
“Sorry, bro, I didn’t mean to be
offensive, but,” he motioned to himself, “straight guy here. I don’t know if there are preferred terms for
that kind of thing. But, have you
thought about it? How do you feel about
being either, especially the ‘catcher’?”
“I’m scared.” Michael spoke quietly,
“I’m excited, too. I can’t wait to see
him and touch him, and I know that sounds weird because you’re my guy friend,
but I can’t. And if that means I have to
learn to ‘catch,’” he made air quotes, “then I will. A lot of people do it and they seem to enjoy
it…”
“OH MY GOD!” Yuuki exclaimed and
Michael jumped. “That’s what you’ve been
doing all weekend!” Yuuki pointed at
Michael and had an accusing face, “You’ve been watching gay porn!”
“Be quiet!” Michael said
quickly. Yuuki was laughing so hard he
was turning red. “Yuuki! I was not!”
“Oh yes you were!” Yuuki exclaimed
quietly, “You so were.”
“I did some research, yes, but don’t blow it out of proportion.” Michael
said over his cup.
“Research…” Yuuki was laughing
again. He took a deep breath and said,
“suuuuuuure.”
“You’re so immature.” Michael said, putting his cup down and
crossing his arms.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” Yuuki said,
still laughing.
“Don’t be an ass.” Michael said.
Yuuki let out a few more chuckles
before he quieted down, “I’m sorry, for real.
I wasn’t making fun, just joking around.
And in all seriousness, though, how else are you supposed to learn?”
“I could read yaoi,” Michael
suggested.
Yuuki just stared at him for a long
time then said, “I have so many questions.
First, how do you even know the word yaoi? Second, how do you know what yaoi is? Thirdly, yaoi, really? I thought you were turning gay, not into a
girl.”
“Woah, ouch! First of all, I’m not turning gay, I just
happen to have an attraction for another man.
Second, how do you know about yaoi?”
Michael pointed at Yuuki. “I know
about it because Ellie is a fan. It
turns out that she’s kind of a nerd, and not just in the super science genius
kind of way, but also in the I-love-anime-and-manga kind of way. So she recommended that I check some out,
considering the ones she recommended were about how two straight men fall in
love with each other and find themselves in a similar situation as myself and
my new friend.”
“I did not expect that,” Yuuki was
finally starting to calm down. “But you
never know with anyone,” he said jokingly, “He might be hiding a secret man
under his bed.” He looked pointedly at
Michael.
“I’m pretty sure he has his own
apartment and doesn’t need to hide under my bed.” Michael said, playing along.
“No, but I know you and I’m sure
you’d love to cage him up somehow, maybe with rope?” Yuuki winked at him.
“I really hope you don’t know me
well enough to know my sexual fantasies,” Michael said with a sound of fake
disgust.
“I am very happy to say that I
don’t. But I know your personality and
if I had to guess…”
“Let’s just not go there, okay?”
Michael said.
“Alright alright.” Yuuki said.
“But now you have to tell me who the mystery person is.”
“I was hoping you’d forget.” Michael said with a sigh.
“You knew that was very
unlikely.” Yuuki responded. “Come on~” he nudged.
“Okay, geeze,” Michael picked up his
cup and as he touched his lips with it he mumbled, “Its Lukas.”
Yuuki didn’t say anything for a
moment then, “What?!” he said slamming his hands on the table again.
“Calm down, Yuuki,” Michael urged
him.
“No, I won’t. Lukas?
Michael really?” Michael couldn’t
tell if he was in disbelief or if he was mad.
“That pompous ass hat? He is
nothing but ignorant to anyone he feels is below him, and that is pretty much
everyone. He acts so smug, gah! How could a man like that insight such a
response from you and it not be a negative one?”
“You don’t know him,” Michael said.
“It’s pretty obvious that you don’t
either.” Yuuki said. “You’ve spent one night with him and you have
a whole new outlook on him. Like he
isn’t the same Lukas that practically thinks he’s a god above all else. Michael…” he sighed, “I don’t want to be that
kind of person, I want to be supportive, but I don’t know if I can. He’s just so…”
There was an awkward silence between
them for a few minutes. Michael finally
said, “I didn’t ask for this to happen.
That is just how my life goes, I either go with the flow or I get left
behind. I know you don’t think he’s a
good person, and hell, you’re right, I don’t
know him very well. But, Yuuki, I’ve seen him. I witnessed him at his worse. Anyone fighting a daily battle like that tends
to put up walls and sometime those walls look like arrogance and snubbiness to
others, but really they are only meant to do one job, and that is to keep people
out so that person doesn’t get hurt. I…
do the same.”
Yuuki looked at him, really
looked. “Michael you don’t do that, you
try to let people in, right?”
“Yuuki, you’re the only one I’ve
ever let in. I can’t let anyone else in,
it’s too hard.” Michael was feeling
himself start to clench his muscles. He
knew this path of conversation would lead nowhere but to his own pain and
panic. “He knows what that’s like. He knows that on the inside of the wall its
very lonely. Yuuki, please don’t write
him off yet. I can’t say that he doesn’t
intend to be mean, but I can say he
is kind and generous. And, Yuuki,”
Michael said, trying to drive the point him, “he took care of me.” Yuuki took a deep breath but didn’t say
anything for a while. “Please, let me
give him a chance. If I don’t have you
at my back then I have nothing.”
Yuuki let out a long sigh then said,
“Michael, I know how hard it’s been for you. Even with me you’re not open. So,” he took another breath, “if Lukas is
able to bring you out and make you happy, actually
happy, not content, then I am willing to give him a little leeway.” He looked away and crossed his arms over his
chest as if it was a real challenge to say what he did.
Michael looked at him with stars in
his eyes. “Yuuuuuuuki! Thank you!” Michael stood up and rushed to his side of
the table, giving him a hug with is long arms.
“It’s not like you would have
listened to me anyways…” Yuuki mumbled into Michael’s arm and Michael
laughed. Michael finally released Yuuki
and sat back down. “When do you see him
next?” he asked after taking a drink of his coffee.
“I’m not sure yet. To be honest, I’ve been avoiding him. I don’t want to come on too strong.”
“Don’t wait too long, he’ll think
you aren’t interested,” Yuuki said.
Michael laughed, “If he thinks I’m
not interested after the other night, then…”
“Alright, we get it, you got lucky with a very handsome man,” Yuuki said.
“Alright, we get it, you got lucky with a very handsome man,” Yuuki said.
“So, speaking of which, how’s things
with Sarah?”
“Oh, it’s my turn to play twenty
questions, is it?” Yuuki asked with a smile.
“They are pretty good, so far she seems to be supportive of my work and
doesn’t make fun of my taste in movies and such.”
“That’s great!” Michael said.
The two gibbered on for a little while longer about Sarah and even a
little about Ellie. Then they finally finished
up and went back outside, preparing to head home. “See you later! Oh! I forgot to ask, are you going into the
office tomorrow?”
“I hadn’t planned on it, I haven’t
finished up the color and final touches for the comic just yet.”
“Ah okay.”
“Are you? Did Tori call you?”
“Yes sir! He said there are only a few things that need
worked on but I could have it to the printer very shortly.” Michael was excited all over again.
“That’s awesome! I’m not surprised but it always feel good
when they call and tell you your draft has been accepted.”
“Yeah, no kidding, I hate playing
the waiting game. But, anyways, I’ll see
ya when I see ya!” Michael waved and
Yuuki nodded and they went their separate ways.
Michael pulled out his phone and typed a little
message to his followers:
The draft of the final
book of the Dark Heart series has been accepted!
I know I’m excited I
hope you all are too!
I’m having a great day
because of that and some other news I got
So I really hope you all
are having a wonderful day too! <3
Michael was smiling when he slid his
phone back into his pocket. He started
walking before looking up, but when he did he almost ran right into “Lukas!”
“Oh! Michael,” Lukas said, clearly
distracted.
“Hey, I’m sorry I’ve been kind of a
ghost…” Michael noticed that Lukas wasn’t really paying attention. He had a worried look on his face. “What’s the matter? You don’t look well.”
“Hm?
Oh… it’s nothing.” Lukas was clamming up, as he usually did.
Michael was not going to allow Lukas
to shut him out. He stepped in and
wrapped his hand around his head, pulling his attention to him as he leaned in
and kissed him. When he pulled away
Lukas had a surprised look on his face and was giving him his full attention. “That’s better. You will not block me—“
“Michael… what if we were seen?”
“I’m pretty sure a man kissing
another man is not really a big deal anymore.”
Michael said, missing the point.
“I mean, if Yuuki saw…”
“Oh, I told him,” Michael said with
a prideful smile on his face.
“You did?” he said, sounding
surprised.
“Yep, but don’t change the subject. What’s going on?” Michael was sincerely worried.
“It’s no-“ Michael put a finger over his lips and made a
uh-uh sound. Lukas gave him a
glare. “You don’t have to worry. I don’t want to put my burdens on you.”
Michael sighed. “In my world, once I’ve seen your dick and
you’ve seen mine, then you’re allowed to lay some on me, cause I don’t play
with just anyone’s dick.” He said with a
wink.
Lukas looked taken aback and for a
moment he was silent. For some reason,
looking at him like that made Michael want to drag him to the nearest alley
and—
“It’s my brother,” Lukas said, pulling
Michael out of his dirty thoughts. “I
was so relieved when he left active duty from the army and went into the
guard. But his former unit is in need of
his superior technical skills and want him to go back overseas.” As he talked, Lukas’s face became more drawn
with worry. “I know he’ll be in a bunker
most of the time, but he still has to travel and I know that the barracks
aren’t always the safest place and with terrorists, if they want it done,
they’ll find a way…”
Michael didn’t know what to say or
do, so he just wrapped his arms around Lukas and said, “I’m so sorry.” He felt Lukas’s arms come around him and he
gripped Michael as hard as he could. He
laid his head on Michael’s shoulder and Michael could feel him shaking.
“When I think of him there again, I
just replay over and over what happened when I was there and I can’t help but
see him hurt or dead.” Lukas was
whispering but Michael could hear his fear.
He clenched him harder, trying to let him know he was there for him. “I don’t want to lose him, Michael, I
can’t. He’s my best friend, he’s makes
me strong, without him I’ll be nothing, I’ll be weak.” Michael heard the tears in his voice.
“I can’t imagine how you feel,”
Michael said, holding on to him. “But I
know this: if he can make you who you are and he pushes you to be better, and
if he is anything like you then he is strong and brilliant. He’ll know to keep his head down and eyes
up. And with you and your family here
waiting, he won’t do anything risky, because he doesn’t want to lose this life yet.” Michael prayed that he said the right thing
and was worried he had made it worse when Lukas didn’t say or even move for a
very long time. He was holding his
breath and kissing the side of Lukas’s head when he finally felt him nod.
“Will you stay with me?” Lukas
whispered. Michael recognized that
voice, Lukas was very near another attack.
“Of course.” He said. They remained on the sidewalk for a moment
more before Lukas pulled away. “And I
want to be there when he leaves.” Lukas
looked at him, with tears in his eyes and nodded again. Michael stood beside
him ready to go wherever he wanted but Lukas didn’t seem to know where that
was. Michael reached over and gently
grasped his hand and started walking towards his own place. Michael walked slow, to allow Lukas time to
pull away or decide he wanted to go somewhere else, but he didn’t, he just
followed Michael.
Michael unlocked his door and let
Lukas in. He was looking down, as he had
been the whole time and Michael was still worried. He took Lukas’s coat and hung it up with his
own on the hooks on the wall by the door.
He slid his own shoes off and quickly walked around his small living
room, turning on the few lamps he had.
His living room was about half the size of Lukas’s, with the kitchen
attached to one end and a large bay window taking up the opposite wall. The hallway to his room and study was right
in the middle of the two rooms, across from the front door.
Lukas was finally looking around by
the time Michael had turned on all the lights.
“Welcome to my home.” He said with a smile. “It’s a bit smaller than yours but I don’t
need a lot of space.” Michael’s living
room was undecorated, besides the couch and love seat, the only other
furnishings were the two end tables, a small coffee table and his entertainment
stand, which held his television.
“If you want you can sit on the
couch.” Michael saw that Lukas was still standing and looked very
uncomfortable. Michael came back to him
and hugged him again. “I know you’re
afraid,” he said gently. “Let me help
you, if I can.” Lukas brought his hand
up and ran his fingers over Michael’s cheek.
“You are helping by just being
here,” he said. Michael leaned against
his cool fingers and then turned and kissed his palm. Lukas closed his eyes for a moment, enjoying
the feeling. “I’m sorry…” he said as he
opened his eyes. Michael looked at him,
confused, then Lukas grabbed both sides of his face and brought Michael’s mouth
to his. His kiss was hard and pained,
but also needing. He pryed open
Michael’s mouth with his tongue and sucked Micheal’s into his mouth. He sucked on it and caressed it with his own
before he bit it, just enough to shock Michael.
He pulled away and they were both breathless.
Michael wanted to ask him if he
really wanted to do this but he could tell by his face and his kiss that he
didn’t just want it, he needed it. He
needed to express his fear in a way that Michael could understand. So Michael said instead, “If I’m going to be
what you need tonight, then I’ll need something to makes sure that I will be
there with everything I have.” Lukas
dropped his hand and Michael made his way to his fridge. He pulled out a bottle of rum and drank
straight from it. He downed about a
third of the bottle before he stopped to take a breath. He sat the bottle and lid down on the
counter. As he walked around the
counter, already feeling the warmth of the alcohol, he pulled his own shirt off
of himself and let it drop to the floor.
Then he reached for Lukas and was stopped. Lukas stared at him as he too removed his
shirt and dropped it to the floor, never losing eye contact with him.
He kept staring for a few seconds
after his shirt had made it to the floor, almost piercing Michael with his
brown eyes. Michael wanted to look away
but he was completely ensnared by him.
Then, as if he were shocked, Lukas moved. He put his hands on Michael’s chest and
pushed him roughly towards the wall.
Michael’s back hit with a thump, but Lukas didn’t stop, he slid his
hands around Michael’s hips and pressed his bare chest against his. He once again took Michael’s mouth, his need
was great and Michael wanted to give everything he had, so he pushed back
against Lukas’s pressing lips and tongue.
Lukas moaned but didn’t stop. As
he conquered Michael’s mouth, he moved his hands. He slid his nails down Michael’s ribs,
feeling every one of them and with every inch Michael flinched and gasped with
pleasure. Michael could feel the heat
from where Lukas had scratched him it was painful and hot, but he wanted more. Michael expressed his desire with his
tongue. He invaded Lukas’s mouth with it
and ran it over his teeth, tongue and top of it. He wanted to be a part of him and fill him
with desire. Lukas took the hint and
leaned back just enough to put his fingers between them. He ran his nails down his chest and the front
of his rib cage. And like before Michael
gasped, grasping Lukas’s shoulders, he held himself steady while pleasure
flooded him. Lukas took it further. He broke his kisses with Michael, which made
him wimper, and bit his ear then his neck, side and front, pushing his head
back to reveal his tender throat. He
didn’t just nibble, he bit hard enough that Michael was sure that Lukas had
drawn blood. He was a little surprised
but realized that this was Lukas’s way of expressing his anguish. And he knew that if this kept him from having
an attack, he would gladly do it for him.
When Lukas was finished with
Michael’s neck he bit his shoulders and the muscles in his upper arm, licking
where he bit as if claiming the marks he left as his. He stopped and looked at Michael, partially
asking him if he was okay and partially telling him that he belong to
Lukas. Michael was flush; he bit his
lower lip and smiled, inviting him to give him everything he had. Lukas took that as a challenge and pulled him
away from the wall and against him.
Lukas slid his hands down Michael’s back and right into his pants. He grasped both is his cheeks in his hand and
squeezed. Michael let out a small sound
of surprise, but stepped back, pulling Lukas with him. Lukas followed and grabbed harder to him as
his hand hit the wall and were stuck between it and Michael’s ass. Michael slid his hands up Luka’s back and
gripped his shoulders tightly, as if asking for more.
Lukas grabbed onto his cheeks with
new vigor and pulled him away from the wall and, turning Michael and himself
around, moved towards the couch. He
stopped and pulled his hands out of Michael’s pants, but he didn’t abandon
them. He slid his index and middle
fingers unto the tops of his pants, each starting at his hips and sliding them
towards each other and the button on Michael’s jeans. He stopped and looked up at Michael, who was
biting his lip again, watching Lukas’s every move.
“That fucking lip…” Lukas panted and
slapped the button out of its hole at the same time he took Michael’s lower lip
between his teeth. Michael moaned and
Lukas bit down harder then, sucked it and caressed it with his tongue. Lukas unzipped Michael’s pants all while
dominating his lip. Michael was panting,
partially from desire and partially from a little panic. He pushed it down, hoping the alcohol would
hit him full force very soon. Michael
reached around Lukas’s hands and reached for his trouser button. He slid it out of the soft fabric and the
zipper slid open as he pulled the fabric on either side apart. Michael’s pants slid off of him and to the
floor, leaving him standing in just his boxer briefs. He reached around Lukas’s hips and started
sliding them down, but he didn’t just take the trousers, he grasped the elastic
of Lukas’s underwear and started sliding them down as well. He knelt down as he pulled down, leaving him
on his knees in from of a naked Lukas.
His head was about half way up his thigh, as he looked up he saw Lukas’s
cock was hard and standing. He couldn’t
stop himself. He reached up with a hand
and grasped it, it was hot and twitching under his hand. He sat up a little and laid Lukas’s cock up
against his belly, pointing it upwards and he leaned in and licked it from his
balls to the head and Lukas quivered and moaned. So, he did it again, this time he used the
full surface of his tongue, unafraid of what he was doing. Lukas’s need had made him bold. He let his cock fall and he took the head of
it into his mouth. He ran his tongue
over and around it, feeling it twitch with each motion. Lukas reached down and grabbed a handful of
Michael’s hair, not demanding but asking.
Michael took a deep breath and slid his mouth over Lukas. He took as much as he could before he choked and
slid it back out slowly. Lukas trembled
a little so he did it a few more times, moving faster and wrapping his tongue
around it as much as he could.
“S-stop…” Lukas whispered. Michael looked up ready to see a disappointed
Lukas, but instead he saw a very flush and horny one. “I’ll cum.”
Michael tried to hide his smile as he stood up in front of Lukas. He didn’t waste time, Lukas pushed him down
on the couch and straddled over him, his knees on either side of Michael’s
hips. “Let’s try something new,” he
said, his voice hoarse. He leaned down
and kissed Michael and moved his way down until he had to slide down him to
reach his bare skin with his lips. He
grabbed the top of Michael’s underwear with his teeth and tugged, he pulled
down and Michael arched up with his hips allowing the fabric to slide down his
legs at Lukas’s beckoning. He removed
them completely and slid his hands up Michael’s legs, sliding his hands between
his thighs and pulling them apart. He
watched Michael’s face and breathing to make sure he wasn’t making him
uncomfortable. Michael was reacting to
his touch with pleasure, he was gripping the couch with his hands. So, Lukas continued. He pulled up Michael’s knees up on either
side of him, leaving Michael’s whole lower region completely exposed, his cock,
his scrotum, and Lukas could even see down further. Lukas took him in with his eyes, wanting to
touch. He glanced up at Michael and
could tell that Michael was just waiting to see what he did next.
“Tell me if this is uncomfortable
for you…. I…” he licked his lips “since last time, I can’t stop thinking about
explore this,” he ran a finger between Michael’s butt cheeks, slowing over his
hole. He made a circular motion with his
index finger over it, it was soft and a dark red color. He stopped playing and continued moving his
fingers up until he found Michael’s other attraction. “And this…” he said with hungry eyes. He leaned down and kissed the head of Michael’s
cock and Michael reacted with a small gasp and a twitch. He followed Michael’s example and licked
it. He was surprised to find a bead of
pre-cum nestled in the small groove of the head’s top. He ran his finger over it, drawing the
lubricant down the shaft then he licked his finger and found that he liked the
way Michael tasted. He ran that same
finger down below again and started playing with Michael’s hole. This time he grew bolder and slid the tip of
his finger into it. Michael squeezed
tight around his finger, even though he had very little inside him. He continued with the circular motions and
slid his finger in further, the further he moved the more Michael clenched and
he also saw him arch his hips, raising up to give Lukas more access. He took that as a green light and slid his
middle finger in beside his index finger.
Michael groaned a little and Lukas looked up at him. He had his face turned but he could still see
Lukas and his green eyes were glowing.
He nodded at Lukas and raised himself a little more, spreading his legs
as far as he could. Lukas laid down on
his belly and was face to face with what he was doing. He slid his fingers in further and Michael
reacted again, so he slid them out slowly and re-inserted them, just as Michael
had done with Lukas’s cock in his mouth earlier. He pushed his fingers in until they were up
to the last knuckle. He wanted
more. He wanted to put another finger in
or more and drive Michael crazy. He
needed Michael to show him that he was important and that he desired him above
all else.
Michael lifted his head a little to
see Lukas better and saw his hesitation.
“If you don’t want to then we don’t have to, yet. But…” he bit his lip
and smiled, “if you want to keep going and make me mental, I have some
lubricant in this table’s drawer.” He
pointed to the end table closest to him.
Lukas looked at him with a question on his face. “I… have been thinking about it too… and I’m
willing to be your bottom, but only yours…”
Michael was flush and Lukas could see his pleasure and want. He slid out his fingers and kissed the inside
of Michael’s thigh. Then he stood and
walked to the table, opening the drawer slowly.
A small bottle of clear lubricant rolled to the front of the drawer.
Lukas looked at the bottle for a
moment then said quietly, “Michael, I—“
“Don’t.” Michael said and Lukas looked at him. He had his breath taken from him as he looked
down at him: he had the sheen of sweat on him and his face was red with
excitement, his legs spread open leaving him exposed and he wasn’t ashamed, he
laid there as if to say, “Devour me… Take me completely.” Lukas felt his desire spike. “I want it, I want you and only you. Please…” he whispered as he reached over and wrapped
his hand around the inside of Lukas’s thigh.
“Use me to take us both to madness…” he let out a sigh of
anticipation. “I want to hear you … I
want to feel you all over me…” His need
was clear and Lukas left his hesitation behind and grabbed the bottle. He kneeled down between Michael’s legs and
opened the bottle. He was about to pour
it into his hand but Michael stopped him.
He sat up in front of Lukas, wrapping his legs around him. “Let me,” he said, reaching out his
hand. Lukas tilted the bottle over his
hand and poured some into it. Michael
watched it with hungry eyes. He spread
it over his hand with his fingers and then reached between them and grasped
Lukas again. Lukas gasped then moaned as
Michael ran his hand up and down his cock, covering it in the lubricant.
“Okay,” Michael said as he laid back
down slowly, showing off his muscles in his abdomen. Lukas was again surprised at how beautiful Michael
was and he decided that he was going to give him his wish, he was going to
devour him.
Lukas held himself against Michael’s
hole and nudged a little. “I’ll go slow…
at first,” he said and Michael nodded and lifted himself up to meet Lukas. Michael took a deep breath and grasped the
couch, readying himself. “If it’s too
much at any time, tell me.” Lukas said.
“Mhm,” was Michael’s response.
“Michael…”
Michael sat up a little so he could
look at Lukas in the eye. “Lukas, if you
don’t fuck me I’m going to fuck you,” he said and laid back down. Lukas smiled and started sliding himself into
Michael. Michael relaxed after a moment
but he was still extremely tight. He
went slow, like he said he would, but after a few moments of slow movement and readjusting,
Lukas couldn’t hold back any more. He
put his hands under Michael’s ass and lifted him up onto his own thighs, then
pushed back Michael’s knees with his hands until the almost rested on his chest. Lukas leaned over him, lifting himself up as
well as Michael. He pushed again, harder
this time and further. Michael gasped
but didn’t object, so Lukas thrust hard again, pushing himself fully into
Michael. Lukas moaned and started
sliding back out, but when he was half way out, he thrust himself back in, and
he did it again and again, harder each time; and with each thrust Michael
became more comfortable and he began to moan, becoming louder each time Lukas
was full shaft into him. Lukas leaned
down again and kissed Michael and at the same time he began thrusting faster
and harder and he caught Michael’s moans in his mouth. He returned those sounds of desire with his
own, each time he was completely part of Michael he let out his own voice. Michael grasped Lukas around the back of his
neck, pulling him closer and he began to move with Lukas, his hips slamming against
Michael’s ass.
“Feels…. So…. Augh!” Michael
moaned. “I think… I might…mmmmm….”
“Oh yes… Michael,” Lukas was
breathless but he felt a euphoria he had never felt before. He was hot all over and all his nerves tingled. “Should I pull out?”
Michael gave him a look that told
him that, if he did he was a dead man, so, he continued. He was close, but he was waiting for Michael,
so he reached down between them and grasped Michael’s shaft. He rubbed it in time with their motion and Michael
almost screamed, his moans were turning into loud “Ahhs!” but the second Lukas
grasped him he growled. Michael pushed
against Lukas and leaned his head back, grasping Lukas with one hand and the
couch with the other; he was leaving marks on both. And then he fell silent for a second before
letting out a deep throated sound as he came into Lukas’s hand. Lukas bit his lip and continued with
vigor. He thrust into him several more
times before he joined Michael, he felt the heat of his semen all around him,
filling Michael’s hole. He collapsed
over Michael, slowly sliding out of him.
Michael felt his hot cum running out of him and he smiled.
Michael laid his legs down so Lukas could snuggle in
between them as he laid his head on Michael’s chest. He was breathing heavy and was covered in
sweat. Michael ran his fingers up and
down his back, he was filled with satisfaction and the alcohol had done its
job, he felt no panic coming on, but he was thinking that had to do with Lukas’s
need too. His need made him want to be
strong.
Lukas took a deep breath and rested
his chin on Michael so he could look at him.
Michael was grinning like a fool and that made Lukas feel even
better. “Thank you, Michael.” He said. “I can’t believe that we just did that. I thought it would be a good while before we
got to that stage. I thought we’d have
to do prep and flip a coin to see who was who.”
Michael laughed under him and Lukas soaked up the sound.
“Looks like I’m not the only one
that was doing research,” Michael said.
“Can I ask something?” Lukas said
after a moment.
“Sure.”
“Why did you let me… “
“Put your cock inside me?” Michael finished
his question. Lukas nodded. “I’ve been thinking a lot about it, not just
the sex but us in general and I realized that I want you in any way I can get
you. I find myself feeling like I want
to do anything I can to make your happy.
I realized that, if it’s you, I want to do everything, try anything, and
I’d gladly let you fill me up.” He finished with a smile and Lukas, not for the
first time, was taken aback.
“I’ve never had that….” Lukas said. “No one has ever wanted that from me. Why are you so different, what makes me
special enough?”
“Honestly?” Michael said, “I don’t
know, it doesn’t make any logical sense.
We are both broken and hide behind thick walls and yet I feel you in my
heart already. You’re filling up a place
that’s been empty for a very long time and I don’t want to lose that. I don’t want to lose your warmth; I didn’t
know how cold I was until I felt it for the first time.” Michael looked down at him with a serious
look. “Promise me that you’ll give it
your all. Promise that you’ll fight til
the end and then keep on fighting. Fight
for me, fight with me.” Lukas could hear
his fear; his fear of being alone and hurting.
“I promise that I’ll fight until I
die.” Lukas said and leaned down onto his bare skin, kissing the salty sweat
and nuzzling him. “I never want to feel like
I did without you again,” he said against his skin and Michael wrapped his arms
around him and held him tight.
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